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Review: ‘What Color Is Your Hoodie?’ By Jarrett Neal


Essays on black gay identity.
By Terri Schlichenmeyer

Some days, it seems as though you have superpowers. That must be the explanation for being unseen—for having days when nobody looks at you. There’s no acknowledgment that you exist. You’re suddenly Invisible Man, and in the new book What Color Is Your Hoodie? Essays on Black Gay Identity by Jarrett Neal, the reason is not so transparent.

Jarrett Neal
Jarrett Neal

Born to a 14-year-old mother, raised in a household with an alcoholic grandfather, Jarrett Neal was in eighth grade when his gym class accidentally walked in on their coach while he was showering. It was Neal’s first glimpse of a naked man, and it “ended my boyhood,” he says.

He was well into college when he finally admitted to himself that he was attracted to men; still, the “daily taunts” from his more athletic, more self-confident peers and the absence of a father haunted him for many years. To counteract it, Neal joined a gym and worked out tirelessly, until he realized that he’d never have a he-man’s body. He was never going to make a living with his physique.

Instead, Neal knew that he had to write.

It was “write or die,” he says, though he’s been told that his style is “either too black or too gay.” Even though he “wasn’t supposed to care about books as a boy,” he devoured the works of gay men—particularly those who were black. That voracity for books led to a teaching career.

'What Color Is Your Hoodie? Essays on Black Gay Identity' by Jarrett Neal • 2015 • Chelsea Station Editions ( • 175 pages • $18
‘What Color Is Your Hoodie? Essays on Black Gay Identity’ by Jarrett Neal • 2015 • Chelsea Station Editions ( • 175 pages • $18

In his essays here, Neal discusses the dearth of gay black men in films and television, and he decries white readers’ lack of interest in the works of black authors. He looks at the sexuality of gay black men who, like most African-American men, live under “sexual stereotypes” that cause “a tremendous onus…to live up to.” He writes about black men (both gay and straight) who have made history and changed perceptions within their neighborhoods or industries. And as a black man married to a white man, he notes that racism within the gay community is as big a problem as it is anywhere else.

Author Jarrett Neal is not shy. There’s no waffling in this book, and nothing is held back. Neal discusses gay porn as blithely as he does modern literature; he remembers his childhood and his coming-out story with equal passion. Such power and force in writing serves to give readers—straight or gay—a solid understanding of the points he tries to make. We might laugh or raise our eyebrows, but we also empathize (or sympathize, as the case may be).

What mars this otherwise well-done collection of essays is its sloppiness. What Color Is Your Hoodie? is riddled with so many misspellings and punctuation mistakes that I wanted to quit the book many times.

If you can forgive that distraction, then this unusual book is a good read that may actually change minds. Truthful, blunt, and thought-provoking, regretful mistakes aside, What Color is Your Hoodie? should be seen.

Terri Schlichenmeyer has been reading since she was three years old, and she lives on a hill in Wisconsin with two dogs and 11,000 books.


Terri Schlichenmeyer

Terry Schlichenmeyer is a regular contributor to OutSmart Magazine.
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